Me and B picked some weeds and then put them in front of our faces.
Ivy Lou is kind of like my child ( THERE I SAID IT).
About 10 months ago, we found out Ivy Lou had cancer, but she had surgery to remove it, which was so good! and it hasn't come back!
But then last month we found out she now has a different kind of cancer (Lymphoma) than she had before (nerve sheath tumor). Unfortunately, because it's systemic, the only treatment is chemotherapy.
We really, really struggled to come to the decision to go ahead with treatment.
We've read a lot of anecdotal experiences from guardians who uphold the perspective that chemotherapy is unethical to force upon dogs, who have no understanding that their suffering (with chemotherapy) has a purpose. This is what I've mostly been worried about. But I've read just as many stories from guardians who posit that their pooches actually felt better while undergoing treatments. Plus, all studies point to minimal adverse events and relatively good response rates for Lymphoma.
So far she's gotten through two treatment sessions, and has actually come out feeling better (from what we can infer from her behavior), rather than worse. If she comes out of any treatment session feeling noticeably worse and it becomes apparent that the chemotherapy is a detriment to her quality of life, then we'll stop immediately and focus on more palliative care (I say more palliative care, because chemotherapy in dogs is largely meant to be palliative in itself, whereas in humans it's meant to be curative).
The treatments are really, really expensive. My mother is a dog lover through and through, and even she is struggling to understand why B and I are willing to go through with this and spend thousands of dollars, when it could only end up extending her life by just 8 months or so or maybe even less (without treatment, she'd only have 4 weeks). We are definitely going to struggle to pay for this, but I can't think of much else that's worth my money if this isn't.
Hopefully the chemotherapy (or palliative drugs, if something changes and the chemotherapy ends up reducing her quality of life) will give us a little extra time to prepare for her parting. I hope it'll allow her to live out her final months with comfort and dignity, and eventually--peace.
TL;DR: I love my dog. She has cancer. She's getting chemotherapy. I hope it makes her feel better.